933 Days of Clean Blood

Today marks 933 days of continuous sobriety for me.  That equals 2 years, 6 months, and 18 days.  Wow.  Wait what?  This can’t be for real!  I couldn’t function without alcohol.  I couldn’t function with it.  I couldn’t deal with you…the people in the world.  Or the responsibilities.  Or the good things and bad things that happened around me.  I couldn’t deal with your love, or hate.  Or friendships.  And I had no desire to learn how.

That was 933 days ago.

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I truly feel like a different human being today.  A transformation in progress that has a growth like never before.  I have learned, through sobriety, and the 12 steps, that life is not really in my control.  My behavior and reactions to life’s experiences are, but the ultimate plan of the day..or rather how the day will turn out, is not in my control.  It is not run on my will.  And so I try to remember to turn it over every morning and ask for guidance to do the next indicated thing and stay out of the results.  To be of service.  To live in humility.  To be willing to hand over my fears and character defects.

What a relief!  I am powerless!

In the last 2.5 years, I have changed my career path.  I have been blessed with a beautiful girlfriend.  I have moved to New York City.  I have officially embraced a vegan lifestyle.  I have quit smoking.  And I have stayed sober through it all.  In fact,  I have sobriety to thank for all these new blessings in my life.

The day-to-day is not easy.  It’s not suppose to be.  Life is a struggle for everyone in one way or another.  But it is also a wonderful experience to embrace with a clear mind and a spiritual heart.

I have no idea what tomorrow will bring.  Or next month.  Or next year.  But I know today I am grateful for my new life and the growth that continues on a daily basis within me.

I feel like I have upgraded to  sobriety 2.5!  And I am looking forward to the new advances!

Thanks for stopping by!

                    “We make a living by what we get, we make a life by what we give.”  

                                                                                                            Winston Churchill

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